Last Stop.

I wish someone understood how I feel.
I wish I could explain my rapid thoughts to someone.
I feel like I can’t really trust anyone except like one person.
I can’t wait until I am out of here.
I am going to GSU.
I’m not telling many people.
I don’t want anyone coming with me.
I just want to escape.
I want to go do the things I have always wanted.
I just want to be in college at least.
Don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate anyone here or anything.
I just think that seperating myself from Texas would be best.
I feel like I can’t breathe.
I feel like I am suffocating.
Its a terrible feeling really.
But its better than the emptyness I was feeling.

I honestly wish I could just stop  talking to literally everyone.
That’s why I can’t wait for a job.
At work I can’t text and when I get home I will work out, shower, then sleep.
Its perfect really.
The only times I will have a chance to really talk to anyone is on weekends.
But part of the time I will be at my dad’s.
No contact with anyone is going to be wonderful.
I want to get on track and stay focused.

There are certain things I want to do.
I want to start running everyday.
I want to eat healthy.
I want to stop drinking sodas.
I want to get an actual tan this summer.
I want to make money to buy myself clothes and all.
I want to get my tattoos and piercings.
I want to grow my hair out.
And I want to plan everything out for college.

It seems like a lot but I don’t think it is.
I think the most difficult things will be getting a tan and college plans.
I’m okay with that though.

It is a new chapter in my life.
I am taking chances and moving forward.
I am going to be me.
I am going to be a happy person.
I am going to get my life straight.
I am going to take any advantages I can to boost myself forward.

My last year of highschool is coming.
I am going to be ready to work my ass off.
I will be able to do the things I have dreamed of.
Just watch me.
Don’t be surprised either.
I am so excited.
This is the first time I have smiled for real in a while.
This is going to be the best summer.

You know that moment when you’re reading a book and you just have to stop and bite your lip and squeal or sigh or close your eyes and wrinkle your nose and forehead and press the book against your heart and just like sit there and try to soak up the gorgeous literature via osmosis?

That’s my favorite part of reading. 

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